there really is a calm before the storm, and then the storm is suddenly upon me, in the form of the talk. all she wanted from me was simple, for me not to hurt others, and possibly not to get hurt, and to study hard. and all i ever did was make her and him worry, when i kept thinking of myself as a smart ass who could take care of herself.

generation gap really exists, some of her views make me want to snort at the sheer absurdity of it. she said the words i believe other people are thinking, just that she gave it straight to my face, others didnt, and in some way i thank her.

though it hurts.

-=i keep wanting to turn over a new leaf, treat my family better, and i keep spoiling my leaves..=-